1. Bloating is going to happen. Your body is severely undernourished and although it needs the food so much to repair, it will find it difficult to digest at first. This will last a few months to a year or even more. But it is temporary, it will not last. Recovery will be worth it, being in misery with an ED is not.

2. Don’t compare yourself to others in recovery. This is YOUR recovery and YOUR life. You do not have to eat clean, you do not have to eat what any one else is eating. Different things work for different people. Similarly, you cannot compare yourself to non disordered eaters. You do not know their regular eating habits, you only see what they eat with you, I assure you if they are completely normal and healthy, they will eat the same and if not more than you.

3. You are the person responsible. At the end of they day, doctors and parents and friends can beg you to get better but you are in charge. Only you have the power to change your outlook and recovery. If your parents don’t remind you to eat, eat. It will be better in the long run, you are strong enough, I promise.

4. Your diagnosis is not you. You are more than a mix of letters. You have so much more potential and life than an eating disorder. It is an unwanted guest not a permanent part of you. Maybe take up some fun (non strenuous) activities, craft, music, writing? Discover your real passions. You were not made to lose weight. You can be free, you can be you, keep fighting.

5. Have a relapse plan. Sometimes you will have bad days and you will not want to fight. Write down some questions, will restricting/b/p/ED behaviour help me? What will I achieve by doing so? Is there something better more recovery orientated I can do? Maybe have a list of things that will distract you, cheer you up, calm you down or rationalise your thoughts. If not, reach out to others, they only want to help you. You are not bothering them.

6. Engage in self care. This is really important, you must care for your body. It loves you so much, it keeps breathing when you want it to die, it lets you know it’s ill when you starve it. Have a bubble bath, some posh moisturiser, face mask, nails, the lot! If this isn’t your thing, how about a nice shopping trip? a movie day, curled on the sofa with some yummy snacks? Whatever is your pleasure, do it! You so deserve it, recovery is hard. Please treat yourself.

7. Eat what you crave. It may seem scary but it has to be done. I bet if you try and get around your cravings, eat fruit, drink water, eat something ‘healthier’, it will not go away. And you will end up eating it anyway. You have deprived yourself for so long and you need to listen to your body and give it exactly what it needs. You can do this. Trust yourself, your body would not crave what it doesn’t need.

8. Let go of the triggers. Photo’s, people, objects, safe foods, thoughts and mindsets. They will only hinder your recovery. Ultimately, your life is your biggest priority. If someone or something is holding this back, distance yourself.

9. Let go of numbers. This is perhaps the most difficult. But, you are NOT a number. You are not a calorie, kg, lb, gram, grade, date, year. You are an extraordinary make up of awesomeness. Calories are not important. You may need to count to make sure you have enough, but know that this is to heal you, not to limit you. Why not ask someone else to count, make sure you have a good high energy plan? Weighing foods is pointless. 30g or 300g of cereal, no difference. 1kg or 10kg heavier, still beautiful. I could talk on and on about the subject of numbers. To summarise, you are literally so much more than 1 or 2 or 3. You are a freaking human being, you were not created to restrict and obsess yourself in to misery.

10. We believe in you. Everyone believes in you. And people around you are going to say stupid things that makes it seem like they are angry or disheartened. But they just care so much and they just want you to be happy. Sometimes it’s difficult for them to understand but just know that they want the best for you. And if not, then I do. I want you to recover, and I know you can.

What I wish I knew at the start of recovery. (via rebekahs-recovery)


(via pbisbetterthaned)


important things to remember

  • if someone doesn’t reply to your message they are probably busy, not ignoring you
  • just because someone doesn’t message you first, it doesn’t mean they don’t care about you
  • if someone seems upset or distant they probably aren’t upset at you in particular
  • lots of people love you and you’re not annoying
Wait for someone who bumps mouths clumsily with yours because they’re too busy smiling to kiss you properly. Yeah. Wait for that.

Unknown (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)

This quote by Azra (5000letters) has been going strong since I posted it weeks ago which is lovely because it’s a frickin’ treasure so GODDAMMIT why do some of you have remove the author’s name, WHHHHY?!? I’ll randomly click on a reblog every couple days & see it uncredited or to unknown or whatever! The point of that is…. what? Huh?

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Anonymous asked:

i think minnie maud is a great way to weight restore if youre not at risk for refeeding syndrome but i dont think mm is good for weight maintenance. i know almost everyone will argue against that but from what ive seen minnie maud can lead to overweight bmi's if the person doesnt require so many calories after weight restoration. either way i would ask a registered dietitian, just to make sure.

(TW FOR CALORIE MENTION) Thank you for your opinion xx I’m not at risk of refeeding syndrome anymore ^~^ I don’t know whether I’d use it just for gaining or for maintenance. According to tdee I require around 2400 calories to maintain and add 500 to that to gain. The problem is I’m not sure what my natural set point weight is. So I don’t know what “weight restoration” entails. And then when I’m heavier my tdee would go up? So yes. It’s all very confusing. But thank you. I’ve been talking with my doctor about it to. X



Update 8-27-14

We’ll just bullet point this:

  • I’m discontinuing treatment for reasons that if you’re really all that curious about I’ll discuss off anon.
  • I’m FINALLY gaining weight (woot woot) 
  • Deep down I’m really happy. 
  • Sometimes I have this surface depression though.
  • But I always get through it.
  • I spend a lot of time outside, taking pictures, and listening to music.
  • I’m in love and have been for several months but hey, now my blog knows so it must be official.
  • I cannot eat gluten or dairy due to (as we suspected) allergies to both of them. 
  • I am 1 week cut free and 6 days purge free. 
  • I’m still thinking about minniemaud, does anyone have any opinions on this? 

You cannot hurt yourself better,
you cannot starve yourself to happiness
and you will not find answers
in the destruction of yourself.

Taking yourself to pieces
will not make you whole
and hitting rock bottom
is not the only way up.

N.J., I know you are hurting, but you don’t have to hurt yourself too. (via painstained-letters)